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Ill Conceived

by Ill Conceived

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1.
Nowhere 03:11
Verse 1- It's one of those beautiful nights. Choose a few nice tunes and I'll drive. And if they're mutual vibes, you must be a suitable wife, then. Lunar moonlight's so luminous, I've been cruising with lights dim. Soon we'll arrive at our resting place, but I ain’t searching for any destination. I'm heading straight for the soul purpose of burning rubber against the page until yesterday's mess erases without a sketch left to trace it. Best replacement? whatever we see next and three deep breaths can relieve pressure of weekly stress. No a GPS. No acting stupid at bars. Just gimme a Cuban cigar two in the car cruising it far from this latitude that we are. Chorus- Seems I'm nowhere bound in this nowhere town. Riding with the top back, so baby let yo' hair down Verse 2- It's one of them natural highs. I've always been enthralled in the concept that a star so massive in size can shine light that travels, arrives, and catches our eyes like a flash in the skies after it dies. You caught me glancing again. There's something uncanny about the way that you clothes dance in the wind. All I can think of is my hands on your skin. It's like a chance to begin. We can't let this night advance to an end. It's as if the sun does revolve around earth and we're falling downwards. But, all profound words in this whole planet won't mange to capture how romantic is. Even if I spoke Spanish. Me preocupo por ti, como si sólo había tiempo para hacerlo. Yo realmente decir esto. Chorus 2- Seems I'm nowhere bound in this nowhere town. Riding with the top back, so baby let yo' hair down Got nowhere to be, but right here with me. All these beautiful stars down to Jupiter, mars, to the moon isn't far. Got you and I'm feeling free Breakdown- So tell me. How does nowhere sound. You can ditch this city and go there, now. (Repeat 4x)
2.
Change 03:03
Verse 1- I’ve been wishing that I was rich as Madonna from a different genre with some pajamas that I bought at a ridiculous cost, expensive cars like Benz's and Ferrari's sitting in my garages, a television so long, its similar to a cinema when it's on, a million dollar gym, with a sauna, blond ho's looking like Marilyn Monroe, soo much ice on my wrist that time froze... Kidding. I'll turn your condo swimming pool full of swans into a pond infested with vicious piranhas. Man. Give a damn if you're feeling it or not. Still it's an onslaught of beyond hot lyricism so ill, if this song drops, it'll be on top. A long shot, really. But, I will be drilling your sore spot with spin kicks like the filming of Ong Bak. Killing it non-stop for the.. Chorus- Change, I need. I need change, baby. Change. Verse 2- Wanted change, dug for common cents, But I came up with pocket lint. If success were based off of the way I feel, staying real would bring enough money to pay the bills. It's time to make it happen, rake the cash in. And take the ration instead of lying here to wait for action. To hell with keeping it real. I'm trying to eat a decent meal I won't need to steal without seeking a deal. Been run down from bills and late payments. Still I will continue to build and wait patient to chill on vacation with more scrill than Beverly Hills real estate agents filling bank statements. Wouldn't we all like getting the latest gear free on sight. Just for having a name in neon lights? That'd be alright. (Chorus) I've been wondering how much time I spent hoping for the day things finally went my way.. but I'm behind on rent Reaching for change and finding lint always working hard for a small amount trying to make every dollar count we pay even if we're balling out This is what change is all about. Aye. Verse 3- Why would I lie with ridiculous claims no other kid in this game got a bad ticket to fame and caught back the end of a train wishing for change to re-position his aim from an infinite chain of sinister pain isn't it strange there's no switching the lanes of the tracks from needles you stick in your veins like a liquid that drains out of venomous fangs slow as drizzling rain. This image ingrained into my brain is simple and plain evidence I'm insane. So they call me a stan.. It's StandPoint. Finish the name. What, runner up? Nah. I'm coming for number 1 under the sun at what I love. Some day. You never know. Let the drums play. Effort shows.
3.
Only One 02:36
Chorus 1- I’d rather die than be on this earth without ya. Why do we always curse and shout. Let's try to see if we can work this out. Remember, you're the only one that I think about. Verse 1- I never knew such a flawless dime. Something like you's so hard to find. The way move when you're the grind? Never too concerned with the dollar sign. Where do we draw the line. Would it be true if I call you mine? I think about you all the time Tell me, girl. Do I ever cross ya mind. Verse 2- Caught her strutting that walk out on the boulevard, darted right up and pulled her card like I'm from the school of hard knocks. My foolish guard dropped when that woman shot this look that left me bullet scarred. Could you just listen to what I'm trying to say. You're much to fly to continue flying away. It is 'cause you figured that I want some kind of play? Well, I'm busted. I'll quit when I get the time of day. What's up? Why the rush? Where you running and how come you hide your blush. It's not quite enough fight a crush. Take it from someone who fronts like he's tough when I'd probably crumble under your slightest touch. If I could just exchange numbers, and if it rang with me on the other end, would you send it to voice mail with the many lame men out for simple and plain entertainment. Listen. I ain't them. Bridge- I’m so shy, I don't have the words to put it. You'reso fly. I'm trying to get the nerve to look into both eyes. You really are, even at your worst, too good for those guys. So shy. I don't have the words to put it. You're so fly. I'm trying to get the nerve to look into both eyes. Heaven only knows why. (Chorus)
4.
The Deep End 04:54
Chorus- Gone off the deep end this time. Left my sorrow in a bottle. I can't pretend it's fine. Maybe it's better tomorrow. Verse 1- I dreaded every second I set a single step in the elementary educational system for every lesson I forget and each weapon I'd been threatened with. For every mathematics test I didn't pass cause I was irrationally ditching class. After the last bell, half of these cats didn't scrap at a grass patch. They'd attack in a pack then bash my ass into the asphalt walking back to my dad's if you said I was talking smack. Either that or grab something stashed in a back pack. Hey, I was fast enough to dash before you can say, "Stabbed, toe tagged, and wrapped in a black plastic trash bag." I've had a rough struggle through enough trouble never to become another one of these mother fucking, uppity, bubbly, happy go lucky, sons of bitches. I've seen everything from phetamines to pregnant teens without a wedding ring there's gotta be better things. (Chorus) Verse 2- There was no one else to give it help. Most of what I've dealt with in this shell I'm living in has been self inflicted hell that would make you curl up in a ball. Trouble I saw was luck of the draw, but I'd prefer it to nothing at all. So, this burning internal rage is turning my journal pages into eternal inferno blaze when I ain’t working to earn a wage. That's why I can't stand when a man whines and cries about a nine to five. Quit buying the lies that blind your eyes and enjoy your time alive. I'm surprised I made it to high school. I've caught an eye full from rival clicks fights to knives pulled. Life's cruel, beyond my control. Hiding coals burning inside this soul is like turning a shirt inside out to hide the holes. but you could easily be deceased in a heart beat before it decreases speed and you start breathing weak then completely freeze. (Chorus) Verse 3- It's not the end of the world. Just a grain of sand under a wings length of span that covers the reign of man. Every plane must land or crash and burn. We'll have to learn the change of plans when they take a nasty turn. Then what's the good in higher material salary when cash we earn couldn't buy your spirituality. Anything in between my inner being and the bigger scheme only intervenes. Hindering an interlink. Blame boredom for losing passion. Sorting it through the ash. I'm exploring for some enthusiasm I carry characteristics inherited from anyone that I've met better than me at their specialty whatever it be. I'm not a battle emcee. This actually happen to be shit that adamantly happen to me with accuracy. Wish I could say that I was able to just make this shit up, for sake of it, but I ain’t creative enough (Chorus)
5.
Sweet Thing 02:42
Chorus- Sweet thing. I'm sorry if I stare, but you're just so rare. It's hard to bare. I swear. I apologize if I stare. I saw you vibing from there. Don't be frightened or scared. The harmless type and I swear. First off, I like what you wear, but sparks ignite in the air from all the light in your hair. Darling, life isn't fair. Who would molds a design that's supposed to be mine. It's your glow and you're shine. I looked all over to find. Fuck an opening line. Girl, you're so fucking fine. Even close to divine as if I'm frozen in time So in awe from this rush, everyone's gone except us. You're a call from above. Must be all that it was. Oh, you're calling my bluff. No, I ain't on any drugs. I've been off of my buzz. I'm just just falling in love. (Chorus) You're ghetto as it gets. I've seen you rolling your neck. Sweet thing, I know we just met. See, I mean no disrespect. But, where are you going just yet? I got some doe we could bet. That I could show you affection that you won't soon forget. Just squeeze me and open your legs while I'll be holding 'em set until we're both getting wet and covered over in sweat. I know adults who wait control their fate and cultivate, but I won't be able to mold the shape of the soul I mate to fit goals I make straight to the golden gates with a roll of tape. Let alone, hold the weight of the toll it takes for me to see these facts I'm easily detached and distracted no matter how evenly we match. and it's more than electrical surge of this sexual urge, that makes me say that if you're path is in this direction, we'll merge. (Chorus) Pre Chorus- Sweet thing. I hope you don't mind. But, you're just so fine. I wanna make you mine. One time (Chorus)
6.
Baby Girl 03:58
Verse1- The day we met, I had my girlfriends. You were with your man, but unhappy. It only took no more than a look. I never wanted anyone so badly. I shook your hand and we became friends. It's crazy how far we've gotten since then. How much we've shown this love that we own. As long as I've known you, our bond has grown. Chorus- Baby girl (baby girl). It's been a while (been a while). Don't you think its time we get serious. For every week (every week) and every month (every month). Tell me who better to spend your years with. Verse 2- It's warm inside. Come out of the cold. Let me take your coat. Drop all of your clothes. Made a bubble bath. Special for us two. No one I'd rather be with than you, baby. The seasons passed, Going by so fast. There's no reason not to make this thing last. So before you go, I just gotta know. If you wanna slow it down, just say so. Break- Wondered about love and what it is. Now, I’m thinking it does exist. It must. (Repeat 4x) Bridge- Baby girl. Wanna let you let you know how I'm feeling. Baby girl. My heart is yours if you're willing. Baby girl. It's been a while. But it's now. And we're here. Nothing left for you to fear in this world. Wipe you're tears. So, you can it see all clear. (Chorus) Verse 3- I kind of want to fall in love with her, but I'm stubborn as fuck and probably gonna end up all alone. I would be doing fine in some shit hole that I call a home with my problems. Why would she ruin mine? She's got enough on her own. The human mind is more complicated than anything below collar bones. Honest statement. I've contemplated on it hard. Trying to make sense of it's strong relation to hearts. Basic math, I guess. A path traveling on a line, drawn to calibrate the same relative range, requires longer time to intersect than one aimed at different angles. I'm just trying get a stronger bind while I'm willing and able. Physical attraction was never intended as a distraction from emotional attachment. Sex is meant to enhance passion. I wondered about love and what it is. Now I'm thinking that it does exist. It must. Verse 4- The day we met, I had my girlfriends. You were with your man, but unhappy. It only took no more than a look. And then you just took my heart away gladly. I won't forget the time that we shared. Wherever this goes, I'll always be there. How much we've shown this love that we own. You're the only love I've ever known.
7.
Cope 03:20
Verse 1- It takes one mistake to make a defining moment. Then it’s a long time before they can finally notice you redefined your motives in the supreme court. My appointed later showed up in jean shorts he wore at the green door before throwing up on their clean floor. Then can drink more than grannies stash in a sink-droor. The whole system is just game. They’re a team sport. I leaned forward with a promise to join the Marine (corpse). Only gave me four nights in jail. Might as well. At least there’s bread to eat and a bed to sleep in inside a cell. I’m a thief, they said. But I earn what I want to get. It’s just, obstacles always turn up in front of it. Constantly popping up. Time is wasting and my mind is racing too quick to find a place in these lines I’m tracing. Gotta listen to positive hints or end up with no pot to piss in, in a doctor clinic, shot up, or locked in a pen. And it goes like that. Whatever doubt they give me, I throw right back.. Chorus 1- I don’t know where I’m going with my life. Nothing’s right and I miss feeling alive. Chasing these broken dreams. Trying to cope with things. Verse 2- Got a head in the clouds that keeps altitude   God forbid anybody should reach out to you  What the fuck wound you up?  You ain't down on luck  You don't say shit that isn't profound enough  Always too good for the measure  Your talent is wasted unless you put fourth the effort  to pop the cork loose when it is, aim for the flame that caught the short fuse you got something wrong with you when you're ready to flip on any mother fucker that tries to bond with you  Maybe that's what might be keeping you up nights   or maybe its the rum. Or maybe its the bud light   At first, you figured you'd cut them off any given time but your habits haven't crossed through any finish line Who sold you that? Sometimes your mind holds you back From trying to find the soul you had  Sitting there in your darkest hour, your last resort is to try and change the ones who already are in power  So I don't have advice to give besides,  "Stay the fuck out of my lane.  I've got a life to live." Chorus 2- Now, I know where I’m going with my life. Things are right and I finally feel alive. No more broken wings. I can cope with things.
8.
Black Widow 02:54
Chorus- They called her black widow. How could I let her go and break my heart. They called her black widow. How could she ever tear my world apart. Verse 1- Where the hell you been? I'm waiting here again. So sick and tired. You were off at ten. Out with all your friends. Playing with fire. I saw brand new men. You never mentioned them. The ones you admire. How you weave me in. That deceit you spin. Yea you're such a liar. Verse 2- Always thought arachnophobia was irrational. The black widow that snuck in the back window was a bad one, though. It all happened so fast, I couldn't react quick enough. That simple. One attack with slow venom and I collapse, crippled. Instant fate? No. I let infection grow momentum a bit delayed. Yet, not a split second late. I'm going numb as she spins a web infinite shapes and then begins to convince me not to wake from this ignorant state. It's only bate to trick a mate. Wait. Don't inseminate. You can count on her limbs how many men she ate. 8. Never be fooled by the hourglass shape. It's fake Everything she lied about cried. Every time she and pouted. Every night we stayed up to fight and shout wasn't wasted. Beyond the shadow of a slightest doubt, Down will come the rain to wash the spider out. Verse 3- You're out every night. I'm sitting by the light. May I inquire? What's been going on? With who and how long? And just what transpired? You took all I had. Now, you're crawling back. To play my desire. They say you're no good. I'd leave you if I could. It's down to the wire. (Chorus)
9.
Verse 1- I know a girl who makes the angels sing. She doesn't owe the world a single thing. It’s just, every night that we're fighting, I look for a new escape But, why try to be nice. We've got to communicate How chauvinistic I'd be if I choose to ignore you. Even Prince'll agree. I truly adore you. You always listen to me. Always prove that you're loyal. For all you've given to me, I'm undisputedly spoiled. You're second to none. I'm obsessed with these drums It doesn't mean I think any less of you, hun. Guys try to get into those. It's never broken our trust I've got respect for you, I barely show it enough What a fucking shame. I'm such an idiot. There's no other dame. Just my city chick. Fucked up a couple things, Then I admitted it. But, it doesn't change the fact that I did it. Chorus- I know a girl who makes the angels sing. She doesn’t owe the world. (Not a single thing 3x). Verse 2- When I don't talk it drives you up the wall and I've been like this all my life. True shit. Sometimes you call me twice I don't apologize. You know flawless guys? Prove it. If one qualifies, he only falsifies. So, I'll arrive to the conclusion. That you would fall for lies designed to sprawl your thighs While you're enthralled in nice illusion. I'm not a perfect man, but I deserve a chance to prove I'm worth my damn weight in gold Carefully search the land for any circumstance to sever curses and break the mold What a predicament we have entered in ever since we'd been intimate. Can we begin again before the winter when we were friends and then ended it? (Chorus)
10.
Like Mine 04:36
Chorus- I know you chose another man, but I'll never be off your mind. Though you hold another hand, It'll never quite feel like mine. Verse 1- She's unique... just like everyone else. Happier as the person she hated. I can tell. And, well. I ain't righteous as I always pretend to be. Clear conscience? That's a sign of a hazy memory. Can't even remember reason I ever really forgot for. Use to think it was indecision. Now I'm not sure. Recently, at least. Thought I was right 'til I knew the consensus of people agrees with me. Please believe. I hate being alienated from your planet. I guess that pain is the only language you animals understand on every corner of the earth where good girls are found. Now, I'm aborting the search cause the world is round. Twirling counter clockwise in a slow wind while hourglass shaped fast dates make that ass shake in no time. This same song was out of sync when it came on. No more stringing me along from long range I'm putting bass in my vocals. I hope you're taking notes. Your out of the loop and your whole pitch isn't worth making jokes about with the dudes. No one is laughing. I swear on my favorite hat that I wear. You think you've mastered the rare art of having a man trapped in a snare? Well as many kicks you've sent crashing me square in the bells, I can no longer drum up enough passion to care. Cause it's not the same. You've got the key to my heart, but the lock is changed to keep us apart. Speaking of hearts, We're two of a kind. I played joker while deceit grew in your mind. Didn't reveal your cards. I deal with it. I'm doing just fine. Quitting this game was easy. Done it. Numerous times. We trade the upper hand. It's a continual design. Hurting me was the last thing you wanted to do. Well, ultimately, it looks like you're finally gonna get to You were the one I chose. I suppose everyone knows a rose you pick no longer grows. Then you dispose of it. (Chorus) Verse 2- Hold on. I've got a sinus. Ah… ah... ah-hate-you. You make me sick as a virus. I ain't crying. My eyes are moisturizing, cause otherwise, they get dry in high climate. Ok I'm lying. The truth is that I asked Jesus for some type of emotion, so why did it have to be this one? Christ must be joking! Funny how I nailed you holding hands. Now, what's the point when I only get shot with the finger you're armed with at the joint of a cold shoulder. Eye suppose everyone nose. Hear me? Eyes? Nose? Nothing? Never mind. Let's head to your toes. It's no feat. See, kind of like confined calves. You need a leg to stand on. But, you're riding my ass. Well, the saddle tore, so when I tried to be hip, most of all it came off more so like I'm a dick posted tall. Why get sore, though? I decided to quit moping like a spineless pussy and grow the balls to confess. It took some guts, but I stuck my neck out and got it off of my chest. Now, call me heartless. I guess I'm heartless. Yes. You tossed it in the garbage. That's heartlessness. I'm cool. It was large enough to pick every shard up and build a wall for my carcass with It's hard to see a future. We share a past, though. That's how I know you only face the truth when you wear a mask. Truthfully, who would choose to be flawless to the T? When you think about it, Improving meant that you lost a use for me. A beast of burden. My apologies for needing your affections most when I least deserved 'em. At least it appears that way to the naked eye, but wait a guy worth your tears won't preserver for the purpose of making a real lady cry. They say lust never leads to friendships and friendships that end never really began to begin with.
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Chorus- Cookies. No Milk. Don't you feel any guilt? How you gonna say you're my homie Couldn't even save any for me Verse 1- Cookies no milk. Is like a bed without silk Just doesn't feel the same Why you playing these head games You know what you did. When you opened up your fridge. Ate it right in front of me. Do you take me for a dummy? Verse 1- SP: On a normal day, I'd have a glass in your hand chilled I know how important it is to have each cookie with milk You didn't call before you showed up. How could I know? I swear to you. This milk literally went bad an hour ago We used to eat cookies with milk together as tots Then you should know better. It's the second time that we have fought Yeah. You've told me before. I never forgot Speaking of which, how's your aunt Betty. I miss her a lot Cheno: Don't change subjects Cause you know we ain't done, yet You always try to do this Jumping on a new script SP: I apologize. I was genuinely concerned I didn't mean mean to take this conversation for any turn Cheno: I appreciate that we didn't lose track Cause you know I hate when you do that (Chorus) Verse 2- Cheno: Now that we're back on track... Let's take a look at the facts. Yea, this happened once before... And you live so conveniently close to the store SP: You make a point. The corner store is straight up the street. Why don't you pick up my Atari controller and take up a seat. You just reminded me I've got to go any damn ways because my Fridge is oddly stocked with a bunch of mayonnaise we don't buy So, I can get milk and be right back if you want before long. There's plenty of old times to be catching up on when you're done. As a matter of fact, why don't you tag along? Cheno: Yeah sure. Wait a minute, you can’t change what you’ve done! Breakdown- You're supposed to be my friend I'm taking a stand cause I'm a man. If I have my cookies. I've got to have a glass of milk in the other hand
12.
Witness 04:04
Verse 1- There he sits with a bottle of Jack knocking it back. Shot up with smack. Still watching his back. He hoped for better, yet the slow projector revolves in his head over an over again like a broken record. Call it unrest. Blood drenching the sundress of one less angel in young flesh. Air compressed in her lungs 'til none's left. If he confessed, is he less than a passenger to the drunk mess? No way of asking her. On a whole 'nother notion, what would a blown cover do to his old mother? We're talking about exposing his own brother. Police questioned residents for miles for some clue on who could've done such a thing to a child. Needless to say, they gave up after a while. Now, the murderer smiles to cover the cowardice denial. Whoever said time flies never lived with a blind eye. Otherwise, they'd see it can really grind by. Chorus- I can still see her standing there. Frozen in time with daisies in hair. Headlights illuminate her skin so fair. Would confession allow repair? Bridge- Would it be the cure for this cancer? I'm the only one with the answer They should know who took their baby dancer. Isn't it the least I could grant her? I'm the only one with the answer. I've lost the illusion of grandeur. One thing is clear, now for damn sure. The truth is the least I could grant her. (Chorus) Verse 2- Her father's an honest Joe. Promises he saw the wind calmly blow Autumn snow falling slow. Mamma knows it was dandelion pedals their daughter no longer blows across the lawn she spread 'em upon long ago. He always drove in columns and rows, but somethings wrong, 'cause poppa mows around those dandelions that rose from that ground and allows 'em to outgrow the grass on that patch sprouting where daddy's little ghost always shows off with poses almost frozen on her toes as the songs she chose hauntingly repeat over and over and on it goes. You can't give it back. It's a fact. You see life taken, you have to live with that. So, there he sits with a bottle of Jack knocking it back. Shot up with smack. This time caught in the act. He hoped for better. They found his prints all over the notebook that was used when he wrote the letter... Witness. (Chorus)

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released February 1, 2016

StandPoint & Casey Chenoweth.

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Ill Conceived Yonkers, New York

StandPoint's masterful emceeing and Hip-Hop instrumentation combined with Cheno's progressive singing/co-writing ability are the essence of "Ill Conceived". The two met in the U.S. Army where they began to pursue their aspiration to create artful music for all to enjoy and grow from. ... more

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